Covetous Designs

“There is a very fine line between loving life and being greedy for it.”

—Maya Angelou

Inner Teaching

The Jewel, Not The Lotus

If we were to look at human evolution as an alchemical process, we would see we have become fixated in the pursuit of the gold to such a degree that we are denying the value of the process of getting to it. Instead of valuing refinement through work and understanding, we attempt any shortcut we can find that promises at least the convincing appearance of success. We have objectified the idea of the gold as something that can be grabbed or taken immediately and lost sight of the truth that finding the gold is in no way separate from the journey it takes to get to it.

We tap the nectar and throw away the pulp, pulp which would otherwise bring us the sustenance needed to draw forth more nectar. We pulverize mountains for a handful of jewels and leave once thriving land, which supported innumerable lives, to become a blight. We seek the jewel in the lotus and the lotus, even more so the mud which gave it life is cast-off as garbage rather than revered as a womb of potentially endless fertility.

Outer Teaching

Mine, Not Yours

By craving only the ultimate, we put ourselves at odds with all of Creation. We succumb to radical self-denial when we deny the whole in an attempt to claim wholeness. This has never, nor can it ever work. Trying to claim anything only for yourself is inherently naive to the interconnectivity of all things. Placing such a denial-strain on the systems, we are designed to be harmonious parts of will result in an immune response from those systems to try and put us in check.

This immune response will start softly, outflanking our aims to try and help us realize our misguidedness and point us to how we can course correct. If we fight against it, we may overcome the odds and feel justified, even exalted in our accomplishments. Yet, such behavior is nothing other than a cancerous victory. No denial is ever truly healed via further denial. Defeating such reality, for a time, is inherently self-defeating.

Hidden Teaching


Being possessed with the notion of possessing, we draw delusional lines between “mine” and “yours.” While it is true that sometimes practicality comes down to whether it is “my” stomach or “your” stomach that needs the food, when it comes to such a point of lack, it indicates we have gone way off course long before. For there to not be enough for all indicates that some have taken more than their share.

Hoarding need not only be the hoarding of actual objects like food, water, and land. Hoarding takes on an even more nefarious form when it is the hoarding of time and will. A mentality that requires one to fend for themselves yields a culture that seeks to distract and distrust to try and get ahead. Such cultures, in turn, foster the mentality of self-interest that brings it about. Such pressure builds endlessly upon its own denial. The only way out of such a mechanical conundrum is one intentionally abundant step at a time.

Suggested Divination Meanings

What do I believe I cannot have because there is not enough of it?

What do I believe I must keep others from getting for me to have enough of it?

In what way am I avoiding the process by fixating on the goal?

Am I pretending to have something I do not possess rather than undergoing the process to attain it?

Am I obsessing on gaining something to avoid other parts of my life that need my attention?

Am I holding on to resources others need because I need to ensure I have more than enough?

How can I shift my beliefs about having enough time to open up more possibilities?

How can I shift my beliefs about having enough energy to open up more possibilities?

Am I giving back in equal measure to what I receive?

Am I tending to the different needs of the myriad sides of my inner wilderness?